Undone

This desire overwhelms me.
Where do we go from here?
This is beyond what could ever be
Dreamed in fantasies unfeared.

Warm kisses cover my skin,
Burning through to my core,
Igniting fiery embers within,
Extracting pleas for more.

I close my eyes, reaching for you,
Pressing into your touch --
Burning for the chance to
Savor the ecstasy of your push.

I'm starving to make this reality--
To make our bodies become one.
Underneath all our intensity
I've come thoroughly undone

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Risk by Abanna Cheshire

Your eyes show me your heart.
Your touch is always tender.
As we come back to this part,
My heart and body surrender.

I cried many tears to get here
I've struggled and I've fought.
Though past hurts were severe,
I know that I'm now caught.

So here I am again
In this old familiar place.
My love for you I extend
to see that look upon your face.

My heart hammers in my breast
As your lips brush mine to kiss,
You pull me tightly to your chest
And once again I take the risk.

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Memories - by Abanna Cheshire

My head is full of other people’s memories,
Their pains, sorrows, laughters and joys.
I know their efforts to belong and to please,
Their innocent mistakes and deliberate ploys.

I bear witness to their painful truths,
And I know their loves, hurts and hates.
Their lies spoken, so very full of proof,
But I’m no judge and I won’t berate.

I’ve seen their bruises, beatings and swirling stars.
I’ve known their gutwrenching cries and pleadings,
Their grief and strife and tender, welted scars.
I’ve compressed their wounds, tried to stop the bleeding.

I’ve felt the fist crashing across my face.
I’ve felt my vocal chords shred from screams.
I know the feel of scrubbing away rape,
And I’ve awakened fighting from choking dreams.

The memories don’t belong to others.
I’m looking with eyes of honesty
As the realization comes and fully smothers,
I know these are my memories of me.

Impossibilities by Abanna Cheshire

I’ve made mistakes in my days.
Some were colossal blunders.
Not loving you now and always
Would be like seeing the taste of thunder.

You give me wings so I can fly,
And I bear you up as well.
Destroying our love would be to try
To hear the shape of smell.

I never knew that this could be,
Loving so fast beyond all measure.
Trying to defy our love’s speed
Is like smelling the light of water.

Your love sings deep into my core,
And I pray it will never end.
Trying to silence our love’s roar
Is to taste the sight of wind.

I’m not going to analyze.
It’s a waste of time to bother.
Comprehending love this size
Is like touching the sound of color.

No Longer a victim

No longer a victim.
No longer a child.
No longer tearful songs
So soft shall she sing
For the child who was raped...
The one left beaten and crying,
I made, through defying,
A strong unbroken queen.

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Sadistic by Abanna Cheshire

Some people live only to
Dance upon the backs of the bruised.
With a sadistic sort of glee.
They pour salt in your open wounds.

Counterfeit

Why was she so easy to cast aside?
All she ever wanted was for real love to abide.
When you are made of love it sustains you.
There is nothing else on earth that will ever do.

When there is no love to be received,
Hearts like hers cease to believe.
It's being dead while your heart still beats,
Being cold inside despite external heat.

Bedding someone for just one night,
Pretending love that's gone with morning light.
Finding a worse pain than previously felt,
Nobody guessing the grief she's being dealt.

When they take her bed and she lies prone,
Inside her heart, she knows she's still alone.
There isn't a day when she doesn't hurt inside.....
As she lays waiting....
For real love to abide.

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Choice of courage by abanna Cheshire

I know that i may lose the fight,
But can i live with myself if i don't try?
Can i survive walking in the darkest night?
Am I prepared for the tears I'll cry?

I'm either a fighter or I am not.
I must decide which one and be that.
There're many wars I've already fought
And I am sure this won't be my last.

I know courage is not the absence of fear,
It is fighting in the presence of it,
Contiuing the struggle through my tears,
And standing even after I'm hit.

So I stand here to face my enemies
They are all brutal, cunning and wild.
But I will be sure not one of them sees
The raging fear inside of this child.

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Fairytale Reality

I used to dream that Prince Charming
Would someday come rescue me,
Take me away from this lonliness
And bring joy to my reality.

Well, Prince Charming didn't come,
So I learned to be on my own.
I found out that I am okay and
The difference between lonely and alone.

Now suddenly here you are,
Strong, sweet and uninvited.
I am between cautiousness and desire,
Fearful, yet eager, to be united.

Our love is a wonderous suprise.
Our passion rivals a hurricane.
I have a peace that lies within.
My Prince Charming finally came.

02/05/03
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To the greatest love of my life.
I love you, Sweetness,
come what may.....

Proof From The Obtuse by Abanna Cheshire

How can you be so insightful
Then so jaw-droppingly obtuse?
Sometimes I think I'm the fool,
And my heart asked for this abuse.

I only asked you for love.
How did it get this hard?
My defenses are finally down,
But you've put up your guard.

I see love in your eyes,
And feel passion in your kiss.
I melt when you touch me.
What'd you think'd come of this?

When I look with my soul
I can feel your hidden truth.
You love me deep inside,
And your presence is my proof.

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Love's Compromise by Abanna Cheshire

Should i sell my soul for love?
Or just surrender and compromise?
What good can ever come
Of a heart wrapped in disguise?

I have little faith in romance,
But still my heart has held on.
I've grown tired of the dance,
And weary of the same old song.

Can i finally believe in love?
Would i be foolish not to try?
What could i be thinking of
If I surrender and compromise?

I wait for mercy to come to me,
I whisper a helpless, hopeful prayer.
My eyes are open, longing to see
That my pain was worth the dare.

So can i finally go to love?
It should come as no suprise
That what i'm really thinking of
Is no surrender, no compromise.



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Lemon sex by Abanna Cheshire

Empty passion fully reflects
Your lacking care
Void of flare
Is your total lemon sex.
Hoping your desire redirects
Can’t hurt you
But very untrue
Is your total lemon sex.
Astonishingly negative affects
Raising my bile
Lacking in style
Is your total Lemon sex.
Triggering my vomit reflex
Your hands grab
Clumsy and drab
Is your total lemon sex.
My body fully objects
Hating your touch
Lacking so much
Is your total lemon sex.

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Undeniable by Abanna Cheshire

Who were we tryin' to fool?
Did we really think love couldn't reach us?
Like a wind that just blew and blew
'Til it knocked down the walls here between us.
An irrestible force, soft and sweetly
Threw open the doors so completely

It started not so long ago-
We did our best to resist it.
Now it's so far out of control
We might as well just admit it.
Whatever it was that brought us together
Will keep love alive, and be forever

We are undeniable.

One Time In My Life by Abanna Cheshire

One time in my life
I gave all I had to give.
I reached inside myself
And found there was love.

One time in my life
I gave faith a chance.
I believed your words,
When i knew you lied.

One time in my life
I made love with heart.
I realeased my soul
and you cast it away.

One time in my life
You reveled in my pain.
You ignored my grief.
I allowed your cruelty.

One time in my life
I will make a stand
Maybe you'll regret
Murdering my love.

One time in my life
I gave you myself.
I let you use me
I called it love.

One time in my life,
but.......
Never Again.

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Invisible by Abanna Cheshire

Do you know what it is to be invisible...
Being right there and unseen?
The feel of it is not incredible...
But makes you want to scream.
Nobody will hear the cry
except maybe when you dream.
It's being a ghost before you die...
Being right there and unseen.

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In and Out of Time by Dr. Maya Angelou

The sun has come.
The mist has gone.
We see in the distance...
our long way home.
I was always yours to have.
You were always mine.
We have loved each other in and out of time.
When the first stone looked up at the blazing sun
and the first tree struggled up from the forest floor
I had always loved you more.
You freed your braids...
gave your hair to the breeze.
It hummed like a hive of honey bees.
I reached in the mass for the sweet honey comb there....
Mmmm...God how I love your hair.
You saw me bludgeoned by circumstance.
Lost, injured, hurt by chance.
I screamed to the heavens....loudly screamed....
Trying to change our nightmares to dreams...
The sun has come.
The mist has gone.
We see in the distance our long way home.
I was always yours to have.
You were always mine.
We have loved each other in and out
in and out
in and out
of time.

Other Side Of The World by KT Tunstall

Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an Iceberg
Waiting to change,
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like
the water,

All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same
Just like water

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're.... the other side of the world
to me

On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers
and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're.... the other side of the world

Can you help me?
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore

Then the fire fades away
most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're.... the other side of the world
Ohh.... the other side of the world
You're.... the other side of the world
To me.

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Unwritten - Natasha Beddingfield

I am posting this as a dedication to my Daughter - 4 Emma on her B-day Jan 29, '09

Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still ...
unwritten.........

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Pocketful of Sunshine (Ultimate Edition - 8 Bonus Tracks + DVD)

Treason by Abanna Cheshire

Love defies my rational mind.
My will is not my own.
This is love of another kind...
It's something I've never known.

Falling madly for you
Exacts an exquisite pain...
Wondering if this is true,
And waiting to touch you again.

A bittersweet concerto
Plays in my heart and head,
As heart stopping passion flows,
Mocked by my empty bed.

As this desire consumes me
Passion rapes my reason.
My heart ignores my head's plea,
And I surrender to my heart's treason.

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Unfortunate By Abanna Cheshire

Do you know the heart and body knows
The touch of a friend from that of a lover?
The pain comes when you are one,
And longing to be the other.


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The Caregiver's Condition by Abanna Cheshire

Sharp, sarcastic, wry and witty. 

These are the words they use to describe me. 

Brave, quick, bold and outspoken, 

I’m a caregiver for whomever is broken.

I love making others laugh and smile. 

For strangers, I’m known to get the extra mile. 

For my friends, I’ll do everything it takes 

To heal them when I see their hearts break.

But some days life won’t let me be happy, 

And I’m eaten alive by stress and anxiety. 

Don’t get impatient when I come undone. 

We all know that life’s not always fun.

There are days when I fall apart. 

Sometimes life seems to crush my heart. 

Where is everyone when those days come? 

As far as friends go, do I have even one?

At times my misery eats me alive. 

I barely hold on as I struggle and strive. I

’m sometimes overwhelmed with great depression. 

Those days come lately in rapid succession.

I try to play like I don’t really hurt, 

But today my back’s raw, 

I can’t give you my shirt. 

When you ask, "Hey, What’s this girl’s deal?" 

You should know my pain is deep and quite real.

Maybe I am feeling sorry for myself, 

But it’s hard when I’m not doing so well. 

At times I hurt, I cry and I bleed, 

And then all I want is a caregiver for me.

Copyright 2001

Crush - A Poem By Abanna Cheshire

Keeping you from seeing my eyes,
Thankful you can't hear my heart.
As i have quickly come to realize
I've been hit by cupid's dart.

I'm standing right in front of you
Waiting for you to see me
Given the chance we could be true
Lovers for our eternity.

Glances stolen across the room.
Can anyone else see me?
Hoping to feel your touch soon....
But waiting, and so it must be.

I know this is all one sided
Hope keeps me watching for signs
That in your heart I've abided
And you aren't totally blind.

So for now I close my eyes
Breathe deep and make a wish
That tomorrow I'll be by your side
Savoring the ecstasy of your kiss.

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