Undone

This desire overwhelms me.
Where do we go from here?
This is beyond what could ever be
Dreamed in fantasies unfeared.

Warm kisses cover my skin,
Burning through to my core,
Igniting fiery embers within,
Extracting pleas for more.

I close my eyes, reaching for you,
Pressing into your touch --
Burning for the chance to
Savor the ecstasy of your push.

I'm starving to make this reality--
To make our bodies become one.
Underneath all our intensity
I've come thoroughly undone

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Risk by Abanna Cheshire

Your eyes show me your heart.
Your touch is always tender.
As we come back to this part,
My heart and body surrender.

I cried many tears to get here
I've struggled and I've fought.
Though past hurts were severe,
I know that I'm now caught.

So here I am again
In this old familiar place.
My love for you I extend
to see that look upon your face.

My heart hammers in my breast
As your lips brush mine to kiss,
You pull me tightly to your chest
And once again I take the risk.

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Memories - by Abanna Cheshire

My head is full of other people’s memories,
Their pains, sorrows, laughters and joys.
I know their efforts to belong and to please,
Their innocent mistakes and deliberate ploys.

I bear witness to their painful truths,
And I know their loves, hurts and hates.
Their lies spoken, so very full of proof,
But I’m no judge and I won’t berate.

I’ve seen their bruises, beatings and swirling stars.
I’ve known their gutwrenching cries and pleadings,
Their grief and strife and tender, welted scars.
I’ve compressed their wounds, tried to stop the bleeding.

I’ve felt the fist crashing across my face.
I’ve felt my vocal chords shred from screams.
I know the feel of scrubbing away rape,
And I’ve awakened fighting from choking dreams.

The memories don’t belong to others.
I’m looking with eyes of honesty
As the realization comes and fully smothers,
I know these are my memories of me.

Impossibilities by Abanna Cheshire

I’ve made mistakes in my days.
Some were colossal blunders.
Not loving you now and always
Would be like seeing the taste of thunder.

You give me wings so I can fly,
And I bear you up as well.
Destroying our love would be to try
To hear the shape of smell.

I never knew that this could be,
Loving so fast beyond all measure.
Trying to defy our love’s speed
Is like smelling the light of water.

Your love sings deep into my core,
And I pray it will never end.
Trying to silence our love’s roar
Is to taste the sight of wind.

I’m not going to analyze.
It’s a waste of time to bother.
Comprehending love this size
Is like touching the sound of color.

No Longer a victim

No longer a victim.
No longer a child.
No longer tearful songs
So soft shall she sing
For the child who was raped...
The one left beaten and crying,
I made, through defying,
A strong unbroken queen.

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Sadistic by Abanna Cheshire

Some people live only to
Dance upon the backs of the bruised.
With a sadistic sort of glee.
They pour salt in your open wounds.

Counterfeit

Why was she so easy to cast aside?
All she ever wanted was for real love to abide.
When you are made of love it sustains you.
There is nothing else on earth that will ever do.

When there is no love to be received,
Hearts like hers cease to believe.
It's being dead while your heart still beats,
Being cold inside despite external heat.

Bedding someone for just one night,
Pretending love that's gone with morning light.
Finding a worse pain than previously felt,
Nobody guessing the grief she's being dealt.

When they take her bed and she lies prone,
Inside her heart, she knows she's still alone.
There isn't a day when she doesn't hurt inside.....
As she lays waiting....
For real love to abide.

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Choice of courage by abanna Cheshire

I know that i may lose the fight,
But can i live with myself if i don't try?
Can i survive walking in the darkest night?
Am I prepared for the tears I'll cry?

I'm either a fighter or I am not.
I must decide which one and be that.
There're many wars I've already fought
And I am sure this won't be my last.

I know courage is not the absence of fear,
It is fighting in the presence of it,
Contiuing the struggle through my tears,
And standing even after I'm hit.

So I stand here to face my enemies
They are all brutal, cunning and wild.
But I will be sure not one of them sees
The raging fear inside of this child.

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Fairytale Reality

I used to dream that Prince Charming
Would someday come rescue me,
Take me away from this lonliness
And bring joy to my reality.

Well, Prince Charming didn't come,
So I learned to be on my own.
I found out that I am okay and
The difference between lonely and alone.

Now suddenly here you are,
Strong, sweet and uninvited.
I am between cautiousness and desire,
Fearful, yet eager, to be united.

Our love is a wonderous suprise.
Our passion rivals a hurricane.
I have a peace that lies within.
My Prince Charming finally came.

02/05/03
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To the greatest love of my life.
I love you, Sweetness,
come what may.....

Proof From The Obtuse by Abanna Cheshire

How can you be so insightful
Then so jaw-droppingly obtuse?
Sometimes I think I'm the fool,
And my heart asked for this abuse.

I only asked you for love.
How did it get this hard?
My defenses are finally down,
But you've put up your guard.

I see love in your eyes,
And feel passion in your kiss.
I melt when you touch me.
What'd you think'd come of this?

When I look with my soul
I can feel your hidden truth.
You love me deep inside,
And your presence is my proof.

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